我觉得我生病了。

歌名: 愛得太遲
演唱: 古巨基
附註:
作曲: 楊鎮邦@宇宙大爆炸
編曲: 雷頌德
填詞: 林夕

我過去　那死黨　早晚共對
各也紮職以後　沒法暢聚
而終於相約到　但無言共對　疏淡如水

日夜做　見爸爸　剛好想呻
卻霎眼　看出他　多了皺紋
而他的蒼老感　是從來未覺　太內疚擔心

最心痛是　愛是太遲
有些心意　不可等某個日子
盲目地發奮　忙忙忙其實自私
夢中也習慣　有壓力要我得志

最可怕是　愛需要及時
只差一秒　心聲都已變歷史
忙極亦放肆　見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好
偏要推說等下一次

我也覺　我體質　彷似下降
看了症得到是　別要太忙
而影碟　都掃光　但從來未看　因有事趕

日夜做　儲的錢　都應該夠
到聖誕　正好講　跟我白頭
誰知她開了口　未能挨下去　已恨我很久

錯失太易　愛得太遲
我怎想到　她忍不到那日子
盲目地發奮　忙忙忙從來未知
幸福會掠過　再也沒法說鍾意

愛一個字　也需要及時
只差一秒　心聲都已變歷史
為何未放肆　見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好
不要相信一切有下次

相擁我所愛又花幾多秒　這幾秒
能夠做到又有多少
未算少　足夠遺憾忘掉

多少抱憾　多少過路人
太懂估計　卻不懂愛錫自身
人人在發奮　想起他朝都興奮
但今晚未過　你要過也很吸引

縱不信運　你不過是人
理想很遠　愛於咫尺卻在等
來日別操心　趁你有能力開心
世界有太多東西發生
不要等到天上俯瞰



。。。。。。。。

我觉得我生病了。
我莫名觉得很空虚 不知道自己还可以做什么
又好像什么都做不了。

我觉得很飘
什么事情都觉得做不好。
野不知道我可以做什么。
我应该是一个非常清楚自己要什么的人 可是我又在哪里。
是我应对困难的能力下降 还是我根本没有能力？
我的生活就是差一点什么不能安定
一到周末 直接回家 没有什么太多的别的安排 没有涟漪的期待
野不能不回家。

想去做的事很多 平常很多事我都可以一个人做很多事情
一个人逛街 一个人吃饭 一个人喝茶看书 一个人逛二手市场 一个人逛大卖场选蔬菜选水果做便当弄汤水
一个人。。。

可是就是很多事 一个人就是没有办法振奋的完成
比如说看鬼片 寻美食 踏青放风筝骑脚踏车吹吹风流流汗 吃火锅办主题派对 。。。

然后周末还是回家吧
然好周日回去又是工作的五天。

是这样的吗？
我的二十四岁
是应该为接下来的日子 做打算。

会有人 和我一起听古典乐爵士混合中西老歌 然后很想飘飘起舞吗
会有人愿意陪我省钱然后一起背包旅行看世界？
会有人愿意和我一样为怀旧而兴奋蹦跳吗？
会有人不介意别人怎么说愿意一直陪伴在我身边吗？
会有无论过马路，跨高桥，跳深河，手都不会放开吗？

还会有豁然心跳的人出现吗？

同床异梦

"...这样 好吗？"

"......................"

有没有人向你问过以上的问题，实际上没有让你回答的权利。

没有什么不好的。我心里只觉得... 难道还有别的方法吗？

UP

pixar - UP

went to watch this last night.

I could not express the feeling after watching the movie.

its engaging certain touchpoints at the bottom of my heart.

something that u might always wanted to do... but u always lack of the determination to complete it.

is everybody always have something yet to complete in lifetime?

is everyone keep turning back to their ambition because of the so-call reality?

is everyone has some regret inside their heart?

I am.

Ive been dreaming, to work for Coca cola...(but im working locally and does not any relation to cocacola..)

Ive been dreaming to be at the top of mountain or taking a parachute and shout(but acrophobia keep pulling me back...)

ive been dreaming to ....

all this with a but and with a reason behind, subconsciously human being like us giving ourselves the best way to escape from not being enough determination.

that is the best part of the movie.

it reminds and taking it back to life.

reality is good. but its not better than what your dream and your heart initially tell you.

Do whatever your heart tell you to and be yourself always.

im going to be yong hooi wah.

weekend

a first weekend i m not going home after 3 months.

倒吊人 - 犧牲 (逆位)

塔羅牌義

一個被倒吊的男子沉靜，並無痛苦之意。可見他抱有自的犧牲的精神。在這一牌的故事背後，牌中的男子最後是被救的，也就是說，這牌子背後更深的意思是得到回報。但是注意一點，牌中的男子不是為了回也不知道會有回報。

愛情運勢

沒有了往日的智慧，在愛情中鑽了牛角尖。已經分手的你，卻對舊情人無法放手，苦苦掙紮企圖挽回這段戀情。

>> i do not know whether it is accurate to me...

bcos i did not want naything back to my life at the moment.

but yes... sometimes sumone just wont fade off in your head.

whoever you going to meet later on in your life.

life is just a laugh, the funniest joke.

patience

reunion to myself at rendezvous

Its been a while I did not blog.

Busy? or too many things yet too little time for me to type n post up.

its almost 3 months ive moved down to KL.

Its been 3 months, my heart and body suffered for unpredictables and unconfirmed status.

i need some peace. need some confirmed 'future'.

But i knew im so lucky.

i met greatest ppl at work, work at good company, have great friends around. 

and of course my dearest family.

this month is the critical period of mine to decide my future years.

too many things i wanted to remember, the year of 2009 is so unforgettable.

peoples and things i met is too miserable.

what else will broaden my horizon?

haha (^0^)

compare is sucks

I couldn wait to write somthing now.

not really feeling bad but I am not very comfortable with it.

i am quite okay adapting to the new life now, and the peoples i met is absolutely awesome.

they were great to me all the time. Some words maybe I am not able to listen now, unless i have the credits and power to tafsir what i have listened. Is everyone have very great opportunity after their endeavour? will there be?

I say : Just do IT!

Comparing is just Sucks!

All you gotta do is, look up to yourself.

look up yourself at certain height, do not let yourself fall so easily while you finally feel some breeze. No matter how hard or how differently, just do it and one day, you'll catch it.

No one giving you any applause... keep walking until one day u still will reach the destination.

Just like my feet, if i did not stop, I will reach even I am late.

At least the journey is colorful and no one will understand how it feels.

this is one of the gift from the person above you.

and the attitude u chose to face it, may vary from any one on earth, but that is who you are.

that is who i am.

Do it today.

Do yourself.

脑

当你自己已经是个负面思想者。
这时候有两种情况 ：
1。你会遇见更负面思想者 或
2。你会遇见正面使者拯救你 引领你离开黑暗面。

为什么人类会有这麽复杂的思想？

简单的是人类构造 还是人类的外表。


我想让脑袋empty cache..清清脑袋 让我休息一天。

methods of hapiness

when u and the entire peoples look for something at the same time, it is just about your stamina and the perserverance.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW, S?

I just talk with my girl from singapore.
I am so happy to hear that she is happy, at the same time, I am also lost while listen to her hapiness, cos i reflected to myself.
She telling me, she was like never know the person she is now, but she is very happy, relaxing, and totally run out from the way she used to be. Thats the way. I suddenly knew what i do not want. I suddenly narrow down what i want. i guess that is what others used to say, When you cant get what you want, change your method.

when you thinks, everyway seems like a cul de sac, turn around, look around.
When there's a need, there's always a way.

As long as you happy.
as long as you happy.
as long as, .....
happy!

Heardbeating moments

do you realize how ur heart beat actually?

recently i always heard it beat weakly. its hitting hard and low.
Every movement i take i feel my adrenaline went up and down, sometime while i just do some chores but i felt im goin to fall...

alot of unknown voices in my mind.
the more noisy and happening place i went, i felt uneasy... so much hurting myself. i donno why...
but when i stop down I don't know what i can do to make myself better.

The way I thought was not right.

I read a guru's feature in a mag i subscribed, she is a real idol for me.
she design books, design publications with all possibilities would happen on a flatland.
Eventually I am very very tiny, like a dust. I felt like crying to read her words and description of what she achieved so far.Have everyone also felt the same when they do not know wheres the way to go to reach where they wanna go? where I should go and where i COULD go?

Its right to be wrong, i heard paul arden's words.
but how can a wrong risked to taken u further or more distanced ?

自己和自己

／／ 什么样的自己才是自己／／

你怀疑过自己吗？
人的能耐到底极限在哪里？
你试过很努力捂住耳朵 不听不看也不问吗？
你选择的，请问你用什么方法让它不要过期？
我最近很常在看身边察肩而过的人 他们看起来都过的很好 新加坡拥挤地铁站上每一站走进来的人们 都有很明显的去向。 灵市闹区每个人身上都有强烈使命。

热闹的夜晚 一群出来party的友人 热闹的包厢 让我更怀疑 这是你要的吗？
你想你的生活应该被什么事情围绕？你热爱某件事 怎么忍心不努力做到过了自己那关 才停下来看一看是否有什么是可以改进的。

你感觉孤独 却只有自己可以让自己可以撑下去。

Keep Doing

do not give a shit!

recently weird stuffs happened irregularly and unpredictably.
I never deny I am the weird thingy.
Hate or Love me, whatever it is, GO your way.
I appreciate all the way the peoples I met.

Night without stars like tonight, whats the best thing to do?

Keep doing, S.
Keep doing, just ... keep doing.

i told myself.

S + keep doing + keep doing + keep doing + S

happy

when u know every facts.
when you know how ur heart feeling hurt, your body burden,
when you just want to stay healthy with family,
when you just want to keep simple mind and trashed the negative you.

i want to do watever makes me happy.
i am doing watever i can to makes me happy.
i choose my happy.
dont force me to happy
i will happy when i really feel happy.

only myself know eating peanuts will make me distress,
laying down on bed with blanket top to head,
playing spot the difference keep my mind distract and relax.

let me do this.
why my brain doesnt seems function well?
am i just at the limit.?
or im not actually capable to work up to expectation?

I only want to think of one thing.
I am happy.
I love my family.
I love seeing them happy.
so do not let them see me unhappy.
trashed trashed trashed , empty trashed the negative bins inside stefyong's brain!

Do

what kind of typeface say my situation?

PEOPLE say attitude influenced by personality, personality effected from what kind of mindset we have inside.

While having some low periods of life, giving a turn off negative thoughts and pessimistic weak mind would be a plus to face the unpredictable, unwanted strikes that might bring us down.

1. Do not lose your soul.
2. Do not think bout the negative.
3. Do not suspect or lost confidence.
4. Do not hesitate.
5. Do not say youre not lucky.
6. Do not say You are tired.
7. Do not Do not give up.

warm

to get the decision of your future it is always not easy.
it is as difficult as getting the moon from the sky.

we went sunset bistro last night again
and we were have a great night though.

i watched Xmen, but i could not see anything
i felt so exhausted.
tiring of cant make up any concrete mind.
i gastric, i cud not take any food, i faint, and i am not happy.

so talks and critical thinking over my problems and my situation,
ive made up my mind, that might not cheer pals, but they will know me.
its not saying im giving up any of it.
im just making some choices that i think i might have at the moment.
i am still have the passion in my mind.
i will go get it thru the path i chose today.

i am lonely.
i do not know what i can do.
but i try to do wat the best i could.
show me some love and warmness.